A blog for Claire

Saturday, May 08, 2004

I'm baaaack

I know, I know, its been a while. This isn't easy. I miss them on a daily basis but never so much as when I do this. I went to a meeting this morning and there was a regular there who always brings his 4yo daughter with him. Yesterday we did the gallery walk downtown and I saw Dave Parker with his granddaughter who was hanging onto his 6 foot 7 inch frame. He knows me and how much Claire means to me but isn't aware of the estrangement. He said, "We're so lucky." He looked so content and pleased. I'd like to see Claire again. (I know. There's Ted and Clement and Rosemarie Colleen and Amy. I know BUT this is a blog for Claire after all.) More later. I just wanted to start back up again.

¶ 1:40 PM

My son, Ted, has cut off all contact with his family, primarily with me, but effectively with all of us. A major consequence is that I am unable to have contact with my grandchildren, especially with Claire, nieta de mi alma. This is one of the most painful events of my life. I love my grandchildren dearly and missing them has caused me grief that is at times nearly unbearable. Friends I trust have told me to journal and to keep a record so one day she'll know I missed her daily. This is it.